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AquaAlex1993
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Hey MonsterFishKeepers, I missed you! First, I have to state that I have always liked (well loved) you but I am not so sure you will say the same about me. But, hopefully your feelings will change towards me. All the long time members here will know exactly what I am talking about.
I feel as a matured person now, I OWE this to all of you. It's time to put any hard feelings or any bad reputations that I have on here or any other forums to rest.
First, I am Alex Cardinale, aka Yanker aka Cichla Dude or whatever hell usernames I had. I can't even remember what emails or passwords I used for those accounts. One thing I do know is I did a lot of stupid bullcrap back in those days. I lied very often got caught and tried so hard to defend myself, made a fool out of myself with out even realizing how bad I looked, and so much other stuff to list some I can't even remember.
I was about 15-16 years old at the time. It was a rough patch of my life as I had many personal problems going on and some family issues. So I guess coming online chatting about something I enjoyed was fun. I enjoyed fish keeping very much back then. But I don't understand or even know why I lied so much! I am not afraid to admit back in those years I was a pathological liar and I didn't even realize it. I lied so much that when asked for pictures I couldn't take any... wow.... (punches self in face)
At about 18 or 19 I got diagnosed with Bi-Polar. I discussed this with my therapist when i was 19 and he told me that at the time it was very likely that is when the bi-polar was coming out and lies are a big tell tale sign. But, thank god for my therapy. I have learned that my actions have caused reactions and they were well deserved at the time.
I thank the lord that my therapy has helped me mature and become a MAN. I no longer lie and no longer cause problems because of lies. Because of my therapist I am a much better person than ever before.
I would like to mend amends with some of the old MFK members because I really love this site and I don't want to be always remember as the guy who was an ass**** and a liar and a bad person. My actions back then were bad and I regret them each and every day.
As a 23 year old going on 24 year old fish keeper, I am really loving the aquarium hobby because I don't try to impress anyone, I don't have to lie or any of that stuff. I simply enjoy the fish that I love and I enjoy sharing the hobby with every other fish keeper.
I talk about tropical fish on my own podcast and look forward to maybe getting some MFK guests from time to time, that would be awesome!
So, I apologize for the past. Hope not one will hold any bad feelings or thoughts towards me.
Now, I am going to prove to MFK that I am indeed a good fish keeper, a real fish keeper and maybe just maybe one day I can be a Legend MFK fish keeper.
Love you guys...
It took me years to get the courage to write this but now or never.
- Alex Cardinale
For anyone new and don't know what I am talking about here:
https://www.monsterfishkeepers.com/forums/members/cichla-dude.40697/
Also this is some more info about the 23 year old mature alex.
https://www.monsterfishkeepers.com/forums/threads/hello-from-springfield-ma.688967/#post-7765621
I feel as a matured person now, I OWE this to all of you. It's time to put any hard feelings or any bad reputations that I have on here or any other forums to rest.
First, I am Alex Cardinale, aka Yanker aka Cichla Dude or whatever hell usernames I had. I can't even remember what emails or passwords I used for those accounts. One thing I do know is I did a lot of stupid bullcrap back in those days. I lied very often got caught and tried so hard to defend myself, made a fool out of myself with out even realizing how bad I looked, and so much other stuff to list some I can't even remember.
I was about 15-16 years old at the time. It was a rough patch of my life as I had many personal problems going on and some family issues. So I guess coming online chatting about something I enjoyed was fun. I enjoyed fish keeping very much back then. But I don't understand or even know why I lied so much! I am not afraid to admit back in those years I was a pathological liar and I didn't even realize it. I lied so much that when asked for pictures I couldn't take any... wow.... (punches self in face)
At about 18 or 19 I got diagnosed with Bi-Polar. I discussed this with my therapist when i was 19 and he told me that at the time it was very likely that is when the bi-polar was coming out and lies are a big tell tale sign. But, thank god for my therapy. I have learned that my actions have caused reactions and they were well deserved at the time.
I thank the lord that my therapy has helped me mature and become a MAN. I no longer lie and no longer cause problems because of lies. Because of my therapist I am a much better person than ever before.
I would like to mend amends with some of the old MFK members because I really love this site and I don't want to be always remember as the guy who was an ass**** and a liar and a bad person. My actions back then were bad and I regret them each and every day.
As a 23 year old going on 24 year old fish keeper, I am really loving the aquarium hobby because I don't try to impress anyone, I don't have to lie or any of that stuff. I simply enjoy the fish that I love and I enjoy sharing the hobby with every other fish keeper.
I talk about tropical fish on my own podcast and look forward to maybe getting some MFK guests from time to time, that would be awesome!
So, I apologize for the past. Hope not one will hold any bad feelings or thoughts towards me.
Now, I am going to prove to MFK that I am indeed a good fish keeper, a real fish keeper and maybe just maybe one day I can be a Legend MFK fish keeper.
Love you guys...
It took me years to get the courage to write this but now or never.
- Alex Cardinale
For anyone new and don't know what I am talking about here:
https://www.monsterfishkeepers.com/forums/members/cichla-dude.40697/
Also this is some more info about the 23 year old mature alex.
https://www.monsterfishkeepers.com/forums/threads/hello-from-springfield-ma.688967/#post-7765621
